I apologize for my absence….actually, no I don’t. If you recall in my very first post I made it
very clear I’m not much of a blogger.
And so we commence into the holiday festivities with
feasting and singing and laughter and mirth…except not really this year. A week ago my 10 day old niece was rushed to
Vanderbilt Childrens Hospital, the thinking was that she had pneumonia, strep
B, and sepsis, and the prognosis was not good.
When she arrived at Vanderbilt they immediately recognized that she had
a heart defect. She had heart surgery on
Monday and is still there, waiting for her respiratory condition to level out
so she can come home. As my family was
out of town on a business trip to Dallas and I was home I was there with my
brother and sister in-law, I drove them to Nashville and stayed with them till
my mom arrived.
It has truly been a sobering and thankful thanksgiving and
beginning to the holiday season as I am reminded how fragile life is. On one hand I am beyond words that can
express how thankful I am for the life of my niece and that her prognosis now
is far, far better than it was a week ago, but on the other hand the realization
that we are a mere vapor that can quickly vanish without a moment’s
notice, settles in slowly and I am
forced to reconsider just HOW thankful I am for everyone and everything around
me. It forces me to reconsider how often
I acknowledge the existence of those around me.
It forces me to reconsider those things that I so foolishly consider of
utmost importance to me, but are really quite meaningless.
We decorated our Christmas tree today, this was unusual for
many reasons. First and foremost being that
we never get a tree until December, today is the 27th of November.
The second unusual reason is that we only got the darn thing yesterday and it’s
already up and decorated, usually it sits outside for the better part of a week
before we haul it in and then it sits bare for a day or two, and THEN does it
get decorated. But we got our tree
yesterday because we didn’t know what a week from now (the first Saturday in
December, the date we usually get a tree) would hold for us; would Lilly be
home? Would we be in Nashville? Would we have our families thanksgiving dinner
that Saturday that has been postponed?
I sit and stare quietly at the tree, it is very nearly
perfect, and I am reminded that life is fragile; I told a friend last week as Lilly’s life seemed
to hang in the balance that “I feel like my life is cracking all around me.”
Yes, life is fragile, but this does not mean to walk in
fear, not at all, it means…
Enjoy the little things
Enjoy the big things
Laugh often
Smile much
Sing out
Live life
Live well
Think hard
Make an impact
Impart a vision
Glorify God
As we drove to Nashville on Saturday night, now knowing what
the next day would hold I looked at my brother and shared with him an analogy I
share with my patients.
“Sometimes life throws you lemons, and you get to make lemonade, right? Then there are times life throws curve balls at you, and the best you can do is just swing, swing hard, swing away, and just try……..Then there are the times that life chucks bowling balls at you and then you just run and hide and try to get out of the way….I’m still trying to figure out which of these three circumstances fits us right now.”
“Sometimes life throws you lemons, and you get to make lemonade, right? Then there are times life throws curve balls at you, and the best you can do is just swing, swing hard, swing away, and just try……..Then there are the times that life chucks bowling balls at you and then you just run and hide and try to get out of the way….I’m still trying to figure out which of these three circumstances fits us right now.”
Life is fragile, but God isn’t, so dance and laugh and enjoy
life.